When the Healing Practitioner needs healing…

I won’t lie… 2025 has been hard.

As many of you know, I’ve been living my life through spirituality and holistic practices for many years now. So when the unimaginable happened, I was completely thrown off balance.

One morning, my doctor called with results that stopped me in my tracks — high blood pressure, elevated blood sugar, and signs of arthritis followed by bone on bone diagnosis in both knees. And suddenly, I was told I needed prescription medication.

I remember sitting there in silence, feeling like my whole world had come to a pause.
My first thought was, “How did I get here?”

I take such intentional care of myself — clearing energy, releasing emotions, staying grounded. I thought I was doing everything “right.” So to hear that my body was struggling felt confusing, even heartbreaking.

For a while, it was hard to stay focused on my healing work. Some days, I just felt lost in the fog sobbing and depressed due to pain and not being able to walk— questioning, doubting, and trying to understand what my body was trying to tell me.

After countless doctors, consultations and Emergency Room visits without getting any clear results, I realized something profound: I had been waiting for others to find the answers for me. Somewhere along the way, I had given up my own power — assuming the doctors would “take care of it.” After all isn’t that wh-at they’re supposed to do?

But deep down, I knew healing isn’t something that happens to us. It’s something we participate in.

That awareness shifted everything.

I began raising my vibration again — meditating more deeply, listening to my inner guidance, and becoming more inquisitive about my own healing. I started calming my body, releasing negativity, and exploring alternative approaches that felt aligned with who I am.

And while these months have been some of the toughest I’ve faced, I can honestly say I’m grateful for them.
Because through the discomfort — the uncertainty, the waiting, the questioning — something beautiful has been awakening within me.

The mush, as I call it, is uncomfortable. It’s that in-between space where nothing feels certain, and yet transformation is quietly happening beneath the surface.

As Eckhart Tolle says, “Adversity forces you to awaken a deeper dimension of who you are.”
And that’s exactly what this experience has done — it’s inviting me to awaken deeper still.

I am happy to report that now after 9 months since I received the call from my doctor, I am off all prescription medications, walking with almost no pain and without a cane, exercising and super grateful for my new found life.

If you’re in the mush right now — if life feels unclear, or your body is speaking louder than you’d like — please know, you’re not alone.
I understand how fear can take your breath away and stop you in your tracks.

But you are stronger than that fear.
You have the power to take your energy back — to breathe, to question, to move forward through the pain even when you don’t yet see the light.

So keep going, one gentle step at a time.
Trust that this chapter, no matter how heavy it feels, is guiding you toward something greater.

If this message resonates with you — if you’re walking through your own mush and would like to talk more — write “Me” in the comments below, and I’ll reach out personally.

Let’s keep walking this healing path together.
Because even in the hardest seasons, there’s always a deeper wisdom unfolding — and always more light waiting to be found. 💜

This is why I created Healing With Compassion.
To remind each of us that even when life feels heavy, healing is possible. Sometimes, our greatest challenges arrive as invitations — to slow down, reconnect with our truth, and remember who we really are.

So wherever you are in your journey, know that you’re held in love, and that your healing matters — deeply.

If you are interested in a deeper conversation about this blog, please call me at 866-908-4325 or email me at zoya@healingwithcompassion.com. Or simply place a comment below. I look forward to hearing from you.

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